Hello all, life sucks right now. Trevor came online earlier, first time for a long time. Our reunion wasn't too pretty, he won't tell me whats going on unless it's over the phone[well I mean I know the basics..but not everything]. I can't keep calling him, I have no money and plus my parents hate me right now for calling him all the time. He's changed so much, he's not as outgoing..or happy..and its understandable considering what hes going through, but geesh..I hate to sound insensitive, but he could've called me or emailed me, letting me know things were okay. Now, funny thing is, I'm even worried more now that he's talking to me again, he's changed..I can't even put a smile on his face like I used to. *sigh*Even when I called him the other night, he seemed so uninterested, so sad..I just don't know how to handle all of this. He's so busy...and its like he's shunned me from his life. He has more of a life than I do, while I wait for him to come online or whatever..he's probably out and about. I'm pathetic..I just love him a lot. It's horrible going throughout a day not being able to talk to him. Thats why I'm so frustrated..ugh. When him and I were talking I was using dots..thats means I'm sad..upset? not mad. I don't get mad, I just cry. He left so quickly, before he was always like ''I'd rather talk to you then go out cause I miss you blah blah.." now, I mean..he's never online..I don't know. This whole thing is just freaking me out, it's making me think stupid things *sigh*. I know he's going through a lot, but I don't know how to help him. I'm not good at that stuff, especially when I can't hug him and comfort him. oy vey..

I'm off, I need to go sulk.

Love yeahh. <3

hi y'all! i'm fillin this entry in for kayla cuz she's such a lazy slut j/k haha. today kayla and i shared an intimate moment in her room ahhh j/k! we did hug though, that felt very nice! kayla likes to hug, she hugs way too much man! its like KAYLA YO WASSUP? 'HUG' dude she ruins the 'homie' moment. but hey who doesnt like hugs man? i love them i'm a hug-a-holic! i hug all the time too. i like hugging kay though........hehehehe it turns me onn! joking again..holy jeebus people calm down! haha kidding! whoa whoa i said slow your gotch down there! man..you people are savage.

since you all have nothin better to do i'll tell you how kayla and i met. ah it was a nice and sunny day when i was at scotts house and then there she was laughing and giggling with tina, my other hot bitch! he introduced me and then we all hung out again and i got her number and now i don't talk to that scott kid anymore! ya those were the days...of course i got her number, but we got closer cuz she was goin through tough shit with that daniel kid, so i beat him up yay!

i'm sure you all read kays last post about me bein in the hospital well i'm fine now. thanks to everyone who came to see me  I LOVE YOU! especially pete, i miss our monkey love j/k! haha. i got in a real bad fight with my dad but it's all good cuz he made my face much better rofl! mommy i finally have a dimple! hahahaha...i thought it was funny. okay..stop bein mean already your just jealous of the hot passionate monkey love, pete and i share every single night. haters..dOnT bE hAtiN! n michelle sweety i'll be back to get you! ya i want my sister to live with me..got a problem with that, yo? haters........

dude i have no idea what to say anymore, these journal thingurs freak me the hella out! whatever man, remember kids, don't do drugs, read a book.

BYE.

Hey hey. It's Saturday, and I have no idea how Evan's doing. Yesterday morning at like 6am, Evan called me. He got in a huge fight with his dad, and he needed to go to the hospital, he wasn't in good shape to drive. So considering I can't drive, I called Travis, and he drove us to the hospital. He could barely walk, me and Travis had to like carry him in. He didn't want to call 911 because his dad was still there, he just wanted to leave and get out quick. I guess, he's moving back in with Alex. Poor Evan, his father is such a dildo. He's a stupid alcoholic..I hate alcoholics. But yeahh..I have no idea how he's doing right now. Yesterday they talked to Travis a lot, I had no clue what was happening. So yeah, all I know is that since I was there this morning, he's getting surgery done ? it was terrible. He's never been in a hospital before, believe it or not. He was terrified, he was practically begging me to stay there the whole time. All I know is that he didn't want to go to that surgery room. His face looks so horrible and badly cut and bruised. I don't know what happened..but judging by his looks, it was a really bad fight.

Onto something a little more uplifting..Kelly got a boyfriend! woohoo. His name is Tyrome. He's a thug..guy lol. She likes the thug/ghetto types lol. He scares me a little, but he's a nice kid. Very...tall. Plus he says ''holla atchaaa boy!'' lmao! I love that..

Well I'm sleepy and bored. I miss Trevor, but that's nothing unusual. I went into that site..where you meet people and have blogs and crap..I forget the website, and yesh..and this guy Blake is the coolest guy lol. And Norman..he was drunk when he replied to my message. lmao funny boy.

I'm off, to get ice cream and to go write some poetry. Weeee.

Love yeahh. <3

Hello all. For this entry, well..part of it anyway, I'll be talking abut my friend Danielle, woohoo! Here's a picture:

Aww she's so purty.

Anywho, she enjoys ranting and raving about how hot my...friend is, oh yeahhh. But yeah, this girl is like the nicest person ever. When I had that crush on Andy before, she didn't tell me to shut up when I talked about him. Pfft lol, she listens, unlike other whores. ANYWAYS lol, Shes skinnier than me, grrr..she's kind of weird too! One minute she'll be all calm and normal, than the next she'll use the phrase ''I'd tap that!'' lol, that cracks me up! I've never heard anyone actually say that..

Yeah, last year, her and I started talking a little bit more, you know, saying hi in the halls and stuff. Then this year since we do have Family Studies together, we talk way more. Gahh, that class is so boring and having people there with you makes it much more..bearable(sp?).She does have good taste in guys, I mean..she thinks my friend is hot, so thats pretty cool! Plus she's so freaking pretty..honestly, it's not fair!! grr lol

I'm sick of typing lol. I'll just quickly type about whats been recently happening with Trevor, since you are all dying to know. Mhmmmm! Alright well, I called him lastnight. He sounded REALLY sad..and I was afraid about why he was sad and just talking to him again and hearing his voice like made me get all teary-eyed lol..I'm such a loser. But yeah, hes upset about stuff I don't know..I was confused, but yeah..he didn't tell me much. All I know is that things will be a bit better on Tuesday, I hope. He said he missed me, gahh and that he appreciated my call. He missed me *sighh* lol,and for once, I don't feel like I have to prove anything to Trevor..I don't feel like I have to prove myself..I dunno, it's hard to explain. I'm screwed up mentally lol.But yeah..gosh I miss him already.

Shawn moved back with his dad and won't be back for a VERY long time. I hope he doesn't forget about meee. I miss him too, ah well, maybe he'll call me one day.

Well I'm going, Evans being a bitch again. He says he's fine, but then he'll ignore my phone calls. Geesh..hes such a pms-er.

Goodnight loves<3

Love yeahh. <3

Well this week has really sucked. This whole thing with Trevor is so freaking confusing. He's been so unhappy lately...I feel like maybe he's getting sick of me. I'm really upset right now. I mean, he tells me that he always misses me, but then he's never online..so whats that? If something is bothering him, he can talk to me about it. But he hasn't.. I tried calling him, but he wasn't home. So yeah, there's the last call I'll be able to make for awhile. That was a waste of a dollar. Gosh..I hope he's not avoiding me or anything. He's probably out having fun while I'm sitting here sulking about him. I mean..I just miss him. I know I'm being selfish, but pfft..I'd rather be online talking with him than anything else. I love him...

Yeahh..that's all I have to say. Oh and plus..I'm getting my hair done tomorrow. Oh well..*sigh* who cares? I just want to talk to my boyfriend, but I guess we can't get everything we want.

Sorry this is such a short and boring entry. Just don't feel like typing anymore..

Love yeahh. <3

Ok um, well I'll just get straight to the point of this entry, considering I don't feel like being all creative and all that tonight. I never knew how hard it was going to be, going out with someone over the internet. Yes, I've done it before, but this..gah this is so hard. I don't want Trevor spending his money to come see me..I don't like that. Sure, I like the idea of him coming to visit me, but what if he totally regrets it and doesn't like me afterwards? then basically he wasted his money.

Also, this whole calling thing..soon I won't be able to call at all. He doesn't have to call me, he doesn't owe me anything. I just can't keep using my money and their money to call him or they might end up not liking him. I just called him today, yet I'm like, crying because I want to call him again..but we probably won't end up talking long *sigh*. These feelings I have for him are freaking me out, plus the way he feels about me freaks me out too. All my life, every guy that I've been with or liked, has rejected me in someway and basically let me know that I wasn't good enough. Then Trevor comes along and it's like suddenly, someone thinks I'm okay. Someone in this world believes in me and cares about me enough. It's too good to be true. To have someone want to use their money just to see lil ol' me..to call me..anything. I never knew it was really possible, he really does love me. But I can't let him spend his money like that...

Next, Ryan and Daniel are freaking idiots. -cries- Ryan used to be my friend..I hate this. I dislike him and I dislike Daniel. The things they say about Trevor and I, it really hurts. It's like being stabbed a million times over and over. There's no point in tellingTrevor, I don't want to bother him with this stuff, he's probably got a lot more on his plate then I even know about, who knows. I can handle it...well..I'll try anyway.

I think...I might call Trevor tomorrow.........or tomorrow night? maybe tomorrow night. Yeah, maybe.

I'm off peeps.

Love yeahh. <3

This journal entry will be mostly about my BESTEST FRIEND, Evan.

Lmao, you have to see what he sent me.

Yup, he's such a funny kid. Love you too!

Now, I'm trying to set Evan up. Yes, he can be very perverted and egotistical, but hey..sometimes to girls its attractive lol. Besides, look at the mus-kles people! Evan is here right now with me and gah..wants me to put up these pictures of him..please, cover your eyes lmao.

 Aww how precious. <3

 If only Santa looked like THAT. <3

 Aw look at that face!

Okay, so he isn't too bad looking. He's been rejected by girls for stupid reasons. SO I want him to be with someone, preferably someone who would treat him right. Plus, this is really fun! lol. He has amazing qualities, like staying true and loyal to his friends. I've known him for a very..VERY long time, not once has he ever hurt me. He also has that way of cheering you up when you're down. He himself has major issues in his life and always gives himself a boost to get up in the morning. But whatever you do..don't say "cheese"..you do NOT want to see the boys boxers. Trust me..

Evan is a fun guy! He'll do anything,anytime,anywhere. He takes risks and is very ambitious. He also works out..duh! And he also owns 2 cars..what a guy! He also has great taste in clothes..okay they're not too exciting, but at least they're no Britney Spears. Evan just wants a girl to love him..is that too much to ask?

There was so no point to this entry..lol, but Evan wanted himself in here. Weee! He's like my bestest friend,EVERR. Plus, he's always got the SEX hair thing going on, you can't resist that. AND his mom is a total sweetheart..so come on girls, what do you say? lmao. Of course you must be someone I know..who lives where I live. Duh...

On another note, I called Trevor today. Yeah..our phone calls never last very long..it really sucks. Now when am I gonna call him again? geesh. I think he's like scared of the whole ''i love you'' thing, he hesitated before saying it on the phone lol. Oh well..I miss him. I hope he's not getting sick of me, because that would totally suck. I highly doubt Trevor will actually come visit me, I mean, he doesn't even have enough money to call me lol..I mean driving or flying..you still need money. *sigh* For once though, I don't feel like the feelings are one-sided..he loves me, I love him. It's that simple,for once. He told me if he gets famous, he'll take me with him so I won't end up some old lady with 50 cats..lol sorry inside thought. Gah I love his laugh, it's so cute. Then when I say something really weird or..whatever lol "I like to play with my pussy " -silence- "Wooooww.." lol hes so adorable. I just wish he wasn't always busy and had to go..=[

I'm off.

Love yeahh.<3

Survey One:

The Usual Stuff


Name: Kayla.


Birthday: October 8. 1988


Age: 16.


Nicknames: Squeakers, Air Bags..


Zodiac sign: Libraa.


Sex: Female.




Friends


Your best friend: I have too many.


Craziest: All of them.


Loudest: All of them.


Cutest: They're all so cute!


Friend with the best hair: Kaelin and Evann woo!


Friend you trust with all your secrets: Evan.


Most understanding: Most of them are very understanding.


Last friend you went to the movies with: Uhh wow, I'm not friends with them anymore.


Happiest: All of them.


Funniest: Haha all of them.


Weirdest: All of them.


Scariest: Kelly..yes Kelly.


Most outgoing: All of them.


Least outgoing: Eleni.


Spends the night at your house the most: Kelly.


Has the cutest brother/sister: Hmm tough decision..


Friend you would most likely die for: All of them of course. <3




Stuff


Do you have any tattoos? If so, what of?: Nope.


What's the last thing you bought?: Lip Gloss.


Do you have a job? If so, where?: Nope.


What was your most embarrassing moment?: Uh Falling down the stairs at school.


Last 4 digits of the last phone  you dialed: 1119.


What is in your pockets right now?: Absolutly nothing.


What was the happiest moment in your life?: Last Thursday when I talked to Trevor<3


Have you ever egged a house?: Nope..thats just mean.


Whose?:


Who is your role model?: Anyone who is cool.


What's your favorite holiday?: Uh..Valentines Day.


When is the last time you stayed up all night?: Lastnight.


What is your favorite book?: Hmm can't decide..


Who is your favorite author?: Honestly, I forget lol.


Where did you have your last birthday party?: At Kel's house.


Who came?: Friends and lots of people I didn't know.


Who is your most recent ex?: Ryan Emmers...


Do the two of you get along?: We did..but not recently.


Who has changed your life the most for the better?: Trevor.


What's your favorite song?: Any love song really.


What's your favorite cd?: Too many.


What are your favorite pizza toppings?: Pepperoni, with extraa cheese.


Where do you order pizza from the most?: Dominos or Pizza Hut.


Have you ever been in the hospital for more than a day?: Yes.


How many days is your record for time spent in a hospital?: Uhh hmm..


Why did you have to go to the hospital?: Car accident,got beaten up, etc.


How long has it been since you went to the mall?: Too long.


What's the last movie you saw in a theater?: Wow lmao I can't remember.


What's the last movie you rented?: Mean Girls.


Do you like to write poetry?: Yes.


Do you like to read poetry?: Yes, I love it.


Have you ever written a song?: Yes, I tried to.


After you read it to yourself did it sound stupid?: Very stupid.


What's your favorite band?: TBS,Flogging Molly, Green Day,Something Corporatem Billy Talent..wow too manyy!


Who is your favorite solo singer?: Honestly, I really have respect for Jesse McCartney,Kelly Clarkson, and Jojo. They seem really down-to-earth..not like stupid ginass, plus their music isn't so bad.


If you suffocate a smurf, what color does he turn?: Aww..don't do that.


Do you believe in ghosts?: Uh huh!


Have you ever seen a ghost?: Once.


What is your favorite ride at the fair?: Ferris Wheel.


What is your favorite inside joke you have with a friend?: lmao uhh..


Name the people who know and understand that inside joke:


Have you ever thrown a party in which complete strangers have attended?: No, but my friends always do. It's so..odd.


Was there a guy named True there?: Nope.


Would you ever name your kid True?: Hell yeah<3


Would you make fun of some1 if you knew their name was True?: Aww never, infact, I'd consider him wayy cool.


Do you look more like your mom or your dad?: Uh well hair, I look like my mom. My eyes, I look like my dad.


Are you an only child?: Nope.


Do you have any brothers or sisters?: Yes.


Their names: Ashley.


Their ages: Uh..20? lol.


What color is your computer?: Grey and black ish.


What is your favorite color of ink to write in?: Pink or Black.


Would you rather write in pen or pencil?: Pen.


How tall are you? 5'3.


What's your name again?: . . . . .


Do you believe in God?: Yes.


Do you pray often?: No..


What's your biggest fear?: Getting my heart broken. Thunderstorms. AND the dark.


Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes, I do.


Have you ever been in a car accident?: Yes.


Who was driving?: My friend.


Did anybody not survive?: We both survived..I wasn't in good shape though at all.


What is your lucky number?: 3 or 7.


Do you still believe in the tooth fairy?: No, but it's always fun to believe anyway.


Does the tooth fairy still give you money?:


If so, did someone knock out your teeth?:


Who is your favorite family member?: My mom, she's really cool.


What is your favorite breed of dog?: Uhh..all dogs are awesome.


What is your favorite name for a dog?: Harley<3


What is your favorite name for a cat?: Quiyahna<3


Have you ever been drunk?: Yes..


Have you ever gotten high?: No......


Have you ever been on the radio?: No.


Have you ever been on TV?: No.


Have you ever been in a movie?: No.


Who is your favorite actress?: Kate Hudson,Kate Bosworth,Reese Witherspoon..uhh ?


Who is your favorite actor?: Matt Long. <33


Do you have a cellphone?: Yes.


Do you have a pager?: Nope.


What's the worst thing you've ever done?: Too many things..


Why are all the fun things illegal?: Because life is stupid.


What's your favorite quote?: Hmm good question.


What's your favorite flavor of icecream?: Nuttin Better.


Who is your favorite person to talk to offline?: Trevor.


Who is your favorite person to talk to online?: Trevor.


Who do you wish you were talking to right now?: Trevor.


Do you have any nicknames that you liked that your friends no longer use? If so, name them: Kay..lol it was simple.


Who is your hero?: Anyone who has been inspired to do something they love. It's amazing..


What do you think of racism?: It's wrong.


Are you racist?: Nope.


What is your favorite day of the week?: Wednesday.


What is your least favorite day of the week?: Monday.


Do you like rain?: Yes, sometimes.


Do you think lightning is awesome?: Ahhh no!


What is your favorite word?: Penis. Spatula. Endoplasmic Reticulum.


If you could visit any country, where would you go?: I'd stay in Canada, mmkay?


How long would you want to stay?: Well I'd go to Alberta and stay forever.


Who would you want to take with you?: No one, I'd be with Trevor.


How old do you act?: Uhh lol..friends say I act my age or like..14..and my family says I can be VERY mature. Okay......


How old is your best friend?: 16-21


How old does your best friend act?: They're all pretty obnoxious and immature<3


When you were young what did you want to be when you grew up?: A singer.


What do you want to be now?: A Nurse..something in the medical field.


Do you think you were an adorable little kid?: Yes lmao. I was awesome.


What were the names of your imaginary friends?: I never had one. I only had one friend, Scott. Yup..lonely little girl.


Do you have any pennies sitting on your computer desk?: I thought the word ''pennies'' said Penis.


What is the most unique thing about your bedroom?: Uhhh..


Do you have a black light?: Yes.


Do you have a strobe light?: Yes.


Do you have glow-in-the-dark stars?: Yes.


Do you have anything that glows in the dark?: Yes.


What color is your pillow case?: It's white...


What is your favorite thing to wear to bed?: My pink pajamas.


Do you like Pepsi or Coke better?: Pepsi.


Can you tell a difference?: No lol.


What are you thinking about right now?: Trevor.


What is your favorite song to listen to when you are mad?: "I Hate You" by Slayer..I think it's called..... ?


What is the last song you listened to?: "Brand New Day" by Forty Foot Echo.


What is your favorite movie?: The Faculty or A Cinderella Story.


What is your dream car?: Anything fast..no imports though.


How many times have you had the chicken pox?: Once.


When was the last time you brushed your teeth?: This morning?


What is your middle name?: Chantal.




The Good Stuff


Do you have a girl/boyfriend?: Yes <33


What is his/her name?: lol Trevor duhh.

How long have you been together?: Uhh like 5 days?


Do you love him/her?: I do.


Are you in love with him/her?: Yes, very.


Are you a virgin?: Yes.


If not how old were you when you lost your virginity?:


How many people have you slept with?:


Can you still name them all?:


When was the last time you had sex?:


How long was your longest crush?: 3 years lmao.


What was their name?: Andy.


Who do you have a crush on now?: Just Trevor, he's lovely<3


How old were you when you lost your virginity?:


Do you regret losing it?:


Who did you lose it to?:


How old were they when it happened?:


Did you use protection?:




Other Stuff


What is your favorite emotion?: Being happy and inlove.


What is your favorite TV show?: Family Guy..STEWIE!


What is the stupidest thing you've ever heard somebody say?: Hmmm..


How many cds do you own?: Too many.


When you go to the movies do you throw stuff at people?: lmao..maybe.


When you go to the movies do you throw stuff at the movie screen?: Sometimes.


How many times have you been kicked out of the movies?: Uh 5.


Have you ever been kicked out of a grocery store?: Yes lmao!!


What annoys you the most?: Mean people...


Who annoys you the most?: They know who they are.


Do you know any fake people? (People who act nice to you to your face but then talk about you behind your back): Almost everyone I know. (besides my people.)


What are their names?: ..Just people at school, as well as other whoress.


Where did you meet them?: I just know them.


How long have you known them?: Too long.


Did you ever want to smack them?: Sometimes..but violence isn't the answer.


Did you ever smack them?: Uhh...once I did.


What's your favorite season?: Summer.


What's your favorite subject in school?: English or Science(Biology).


What's your least favorite subject in school?: GYM.


Who is your all-time favorite teacher?: Mr.Favoni, and Mr.Fache. Woo!


What school do you go to?: Dakotaa.


What is the mascot at your school? Uhh Lancer?


What grade are you in?: 11.


What grade are you supposed to be in?: ...


What is your favorite song?: Any love song.


What song reminds you of yourself?: I don't really know.


What is your best friend's birthday?: Too many to list.


What is your favorite flavor of skittles?: I don't like skittles..


Would you rather have friendship or love?: Both.


What makes you nervous?: Being in love, and loving someone so much to the extent where you don't want to be without them.


Describe yourself in five words: Hmm..


If you knew the truth was gonna hurt you would you still wanna hear it?: Depends..


Do long distance relationships work?: Depends on the people.


Would you change yourself to make someone else happy?: Pathetic enough..yes.


What one thing makes you happy?: Trevor.


What phrase or saying do you use the most?: Umm.. "Break It Down, Like Downtown"


What's your favorite scary movie?: The Ring.


What would you do with a million dollars?: I'd get Trevor to come visit meee.


If your house was burning down and you could only take one thing with you, what would you take?: My purse. AND Pookie<3


Who is the biggest flirt you know?: Too many people.


Do they ever flirt with your crush?:


Do you ever want to hurt them?:


Do they know you like that person?:


Are you glad this survey is over?:Yes.

Survey 2.

SIMPLE QUESTIONS:
1.What time is it? 11:04pm.
2.What is your name? Kayla.
3.What is your birthday? October,8.1988
4.How many sibs do you have? One.
5.What are your sibs names? Ashley.
6.Do you have a job? Noo.
7.If yes, where?
8.If no to #5, Where do you wanna work?Anywhere...
9.Do you have a car? No.
10.What kinda car do you have/want? I dunno..

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
11.Movie: Too many.
12.Song: Any love song really..
13.Band: Gahh..too many!
14.Group:
15.Singer: Kelly Clarkson,JM,Jojo.
16.TV Show: Dawsons Creek.The O.C.Jack and Bobby.
17.TV Channel: 46 and 402.
18.Actor:
19.Actress: Kate Hudson,Kate Bosworth..and so on.
20.Comic:
21.Magezine: Cosmopolitan, Cosmo Girl...
22.Food: Pizza.
23.Snack: Chips n Dip.
24.Drink: Pepsi.
25.CD-ROM Game: The Sims!
26.Board Game: Life.
27.Card Game:
28.Kid Game:
29.Number: 3 or 7.
30.Cartoon: Marvin The Martian or Stewie from Family Guy.
31.Character: Huh?
32.Disney Character: Belle from Beauty and The Beast.
33.Color: Pink and Black.
34.Hair Color: Any color..
35.Time of the day: Morning ish.
36.Day of the week: Wednesday.
37.Week of the month: Uhh...
38.Month of the Year: JULY!

LOVE LIFE ETC:
39.Do you plan on having children: Yes.
40.Do you want to get married: Yes, definetly.
41.How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: 23..?
42.How old do you wanna be when your married: 21..
43.Would you have kids before marriage? No.
44.What would you name the boy? Mason.
45.What would you name the girl? Isabella.
46.Are you a virgin?: Yes.
47.If not, Do you plan on loosing your virginity ne time soon?:
48.Have you had oral sex?:
49.Have no, Have you been past base 1?: Huh?
50.Do you even know what the bases are?: No lmao.
51.Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): Yes, Trevor<3
52.Do you have a crush?:

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)

53.Music/TV: Music.

54.Guys/Girls: Guys!
55.Green/Blue: Blue.
56.Pink/Purple: Pink.
57.Sleep/StayUp: Stayup.
58.Summer/Winter: Summer.
59.Spring/Fall: Spring.
60.Night/Day: Day.
61.Hangin Out/Chillin: Hanging out.
62.Friends/Lovers: Loverrs.
63.Cold/Warm: Warm.
64.Fast/Slow: Slow.
65.New/Old: Old.
66.Dark/Light: Light.
67.Sparkle/Shine: Shine.
68.Peach/Plum: Peach.
69.Apple/Orange: Orange.
70.Laundry/Dishes: Laundry.
71..Christina/Britney: Britney.
72.Limp Bizkit/KoRn: KoRn
73.Rock/Rap: Rock.
74.Pop/R&B: Pop.

WHAT DO YOU THINK? (PUT WHAT FIRST COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU SEE THE FOLLOWING WORDS
75.Glass: Eye.
76.Shake: Snake.
77.Club: 50 Cent.
78.Sing: Microphone.
79.Loud: Speaker.
80.Garcia: Italian ? lmao
81.Hair: Armpit.
82.Ching: Monkey.
83.Money: Green.
84.Work: Axe ? haha.
85.Play: Kids.
86.4002: Flying thingies.
87.Betty: Boop.

88.Sara: Blonde barbie doll.
89.Dog: tail.
90.Brain: Icky.
91.Nick: Carter.
92.Frank: Sinatra.
93.AM: Sun.
94.FM: Radio dial.
95.PM: Moon,
96.Morning: Rooster.
97.Ball: Eight.

WHAT DO YOU THINK (WRITE WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FOLLOWING)
98.Eminem: He's awesome.
99.Rap: Meh..
100.Teenagers: They rule.
101.Smoking: Not good..
102.Death: Horrible..
103.Life: Mehh..
104.Drinking: It's okay.
105.Bomb Threats: Scary!
106.Murder: Just plain cruel.
107.Suicide: Stupid.
108.Fear: Powerful.

FRIENDZ:
109.Who is your best friend?: Too many to list.
110.Who is the best person to hang with?:
111.Who is the sweetest person?:
112.Whos the cutest person:
113.Whos the nicest?:
114.Whos the best to talk online with?:
115.Whos the most blonde:
116.Whos the weirdest:
117.Whos the craziest:
118.Loudest:
119.Quietest:
120.Smartest:
121.Quickest:
123.Most Trustful:
124.Most Honest:
125.Most Cheerful:

LAST FEW (Pointless) QUESTIONS:
126.Are you glad it's almost done? Yes.
127.Are you bored? Yes.
128.What kinda mood are you in right now? Mehh.
129.Did you have a good day today? Kinda.
130.What are you doing tomorrow: Calling Trevor.
131.What did you do today?: Nothing.

QUESTIONS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS 2 U:
132.Who sent this to you? No one.
133.What do you think of this person:
134.Who do you think will be the first person to fill this out & send it back to you?:
135.Who do you think wont even read it?:
136.Do you want this to be done?: Yes.
137.Do you think this is the last question: No...






Your wrong(if you said no)....







138.What time is it now?: 11:14pm.
139.How long has it been since you started?:Who cares? 
140:Why is pickle juice green?:Ewww..

[ I wont talk.
                       I wont breathe.
                                               I wont move till you finally see. . .

                            . . .That you belong with me.

I'm afraid to know the answer. . .
                                                 Do you want me too?
                                       

                                       Cause my heart keeps falling faster ]

Hello all. It's 12:15pm and I am so tired. I barely got any sleep. I think I'm just going to stay at home today and watch some old movies. Most people don't do that anymore, most people just want to go out. I sometimes like to enjoy some quiet time, it's relaxing. There's nothing better than curling up on the couch with a blanket and a bucket of "Nut'n Better''(sp?) Ice Cream. OR If I would go out, I'd just go to the park with a friend and just sit there. Especially in the summer, it's beautiful. They always have beautiful flowers and whatnot growing. Same with St.Vital park..the duck pond and the flower garden. But yeah..enough of that. I just enjoy the more simple,beautiful things in like rather than the ''mall''.

Lastnight was kind of boring. My sister brought over the Karaoke Machine to my aunts. Crappy thing is Jay(my cousins husband), and I were mostly the only ones singing. I sang with almost everyone cause they didn't want to by themselves. Jay was hilarious though..he's such an italian guy lol. He's so LOUD my gosh. He sang "Hero" by Enrique Iglesias(sp?), and he's a really good singer. Yeah that was my excitement. From them I got some clothes and these 2 tickets to a magic show. Honestly..none of my friends would probably be interested. Too bad Trevor didn't live here, or I'd take him for his birthday. Meh..

My allergies are acting up, I woke up with a stuffy nose. Plus, I'm gaining how many freaking pounds from eating all this chocolate.I hope everyone had a great Christmas. I got all the things I wanted! From my sister, I got an Electric Guitar,a Cell Phone, and a "Best Friends" Locket. It was really sweet of her to give me a locket..who knew her and I would ever hang out together in public? OR her giving me a locket like that? haha. From my mom and dad, I got really cute clothes; Like this black tank top,black and pink zip-up sweather,a pink sweater, and a pink and white sweater lol. In my stocking I got my COTTON CANDY perfume..which was a huge hit lastnight at my aunts. They all LOVED it. Then I got some really heavenly lip gloss(which smells soo good) and then some eyeliner and whatnot. It was pretty cool..my sister bought my dad a 19''Computer Monitor, and a..T.v, I forget how big it is..but yeah. Then she bought my mom a Karaoke Machine,clothes, and $150 haircut at this salon place. Yup my sister was Santa Claus this year (weird..I have noo idea how to spell "Clause..Claus" Whatever.

This whole thing with Trevor is so confusing. I don't know what we are. He said ''let's just go with the flow''.. ?? I don't know if I'm his girlfriend, but I sure do feel like I am. I might have said something that I don't know..could definetly change something. I'm such a chicken..but yeah. He talks about me to his friends, he's so..romantic all the time, and he has me in his profile. I still don't know whats going on..he said that he told girls he was ''taken'' so I guess that means he's my boyfriend,maybe? gah I have no clue.

Well I'm tired, and this chocolate is making me ill.

Have a nice day everyone!

Love yeahh. <3

[ If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

  If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?

  If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

  If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

  If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?

  If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
                But I know that this much is true
                                     We’ll make it through ]